Headache

Massive headache. 

I cant unlove...

你的生日都还没过。。。礼物怎么办？

两百天就要到了。。。 怎么办？

真的要走了吗？ 听到 分手我很辛苦。

人生第一次听见分手那么痛。

你懂我的爱吗？你明白多深吗？

痛 很痛。。。

不是要走完整个马来西亚吗？

Redang? Morib? 怎么办？

哭死我了。你懂吗?

你是我唯一一个自己选的。自己要的。你走了？我怎么办？

呼吸困难了。可以吃了药跳下去吗？

那把枪来可以吗？刀可以吗？

可能你会觉得我很无力聊，我很dramatic. 可是和你一起是最有意义的。

和你一起，我要做的，你都陪我，你都鼓励我。我连之前做不到的事情因为你我做了。crochet 给你。你的生日礼物。怎么难我也做。你是我的动力。 世界上我能给的，我都要努力去拿给你。 

我不吸烟，不打针。退出了，不做蝴蝶了 。不是你逼我，是我要给你最好的我。

当初你说了和你一起是不可能的。是没有祝福的。会不会是我太幼稚了？每天想着不可能的事。

忘记你吗？你说可能吗？我和你一起，是我人生中最丰富的爱情。可能你不同意，

哭了一个小时 ， 都已经麻痹了。忘了怎么呼吸。我失恋了。。。原来是那么的痛苦。整个头都在痛。。。 眼睛，鼻子，脸。。。 心？好像真的感觉到一片一片的在碎 又有点酸酸的。

真的那么难接受我们？我不要分可以吗？

我的眼睛。。。

Body on Fire

Woot! no time to blog yo! 

Also, theres just too many social networks nowadays which keeps me thinking hmmm.. should I update on my Line, Wechat, Keek, FB, IG, Pinterest or should i just blog it?

I've decided that I should only use Blog when i don't need to communicate/get my friends response and use FB when i need to.

Pinterest are for my own interest. like a collection book.

Instagram will be used when theres not much to type but pic nie.

And the rest of the mobile apps (line,whatsapp,wechat etc) are for free texting and calls only.

Alright, let's get to business lol.

Good news and bad news.

Good news: I finally settled on a job and found a new hobby.

Bad news: I finally settled on a DESK job and found a new hobby, CROCHET.

Which means, alot of sitting and alot of finger exercises =(

I gained weight! 

That's one of the worst news for most girls.

I need to work out. I dont wanna sign up to a gym coz i dun fancy working out in a closed aircond gym. So im still gona stick to d park near to my home and workout in my room. 

now is just to get myself inspired n keep goin. Coz it sux to stop halfway. I hope i wun! Needa surround myself with awesome figure girls. I used to stare at VS angels but i frel like that is too imposible. Im not born with those super slim n curvy figure. So propotionate n beyond perfect. So now i just wanna  get healthy n getting toned.

I did a lil reserach on workouts n health pages. Im loving Livestrong and Blogalites. they r both very helpful! Livestrong has got everything u need to knoeabout health n fitness! Really! Workout vids, diet n workout charts, .

 myth busters and alot more! Hehe and Blogalites is awesome too because im loving d concept of doing pilates at home. Their workout vids r awesome. I love Cassie! She is super supportive. Words cant explain how awesome is blogalites.U HAVE TO CHECK OUT THEIR APP! its very worth it. 

Fuuuh..., geting overwhelmed thinking abt blogalites. ^^ 

aite! Blog soon! On workout updates! Or u can chekout my ig too. I update ig more often. ^^ www.instagram.com/amandaxng

Cheers 

xoxo